Make up or Break up

Once the monotone bell shrieked, I grabbed my backpack from my desk and sped out the door. I didn’t even look back for Lucas. It was cold as I stepped down the trailer steps. Wait! I had a jacket….back inside the classroom. I cursed under my breath for being such an idiot for forgetting it, and thanked God that the school had several entrances next to my trailer. I then headed up the steep steps for the second floor.

“Ash?!” He called while jogging toward me.

I kept my head down and moved quicker toward the steps.

“Ashley! Please, just talk to me! Tell me what’s wrong!”

He only called me by my first name when it was serious. No one else calls me Ashley other than that. Not even the teachers. I kept moving deciding that the library was the safest place for me right now.

I heard someone run up the steps. I could smell his dang cologne before he was even 5 feet from me. He grabbed my upper arm and turned me around.

“What in the Hell Ash!? What is your deal today?” My deal? He was my deal. And he should know. He went on a date this weekend with his EX and completely rejected me. That was my deal. My eyes started to burn, tears started to form. No, I thought to myself, I am stronger than this. I can do this.

“I was going to tell you some really good news…” He started. News? Oh, God he was about to tell me about him and Sally! His face was full of concern and questioning.

“What? That you and Sally are back together? I already found that out!” I screamed at him. He stared at me in disbelief.

“Ash? I don’t understand why you’re so mad?”

I looked in his eyes. He was confused as to why I was so mad. I felt bad for a second. He should feel bad…He’s an inconsiderate jerk. I felt warm tears fall down my frozen face along with a boiling pit of anger within myself.

“Do you not understand what you have done to me the past four months?!”I screamed louder, as the tears were falling from my eyes. I couldn’t hold them back anymore; I was too upset and angry to try to keep calm.

“YOU’VE PLAYED ME LUCAS! YOU’VE LED ME ON!” I yelled; my voice echoed across the empty courtyard. He had never released his grip on my arm and he started to tighten the grip. I yelped from the pain and yanked my arm away. As I was about to walk back up the concrete steps, he grabbed my arm again and pulled me tight into a hug and tried to kiss me.

Everything happened in a whirl, that I didn’t understand what he was doing until his quivering lips touched mine. I pushed him away, took a step back, and stared at him coldly. His eyes were getting red. I hated to see him like this. I slapped him across the face. His face grew even redder than before, and I could start to make out the faint imprint of my hand print on his cheek.

I turned and continued up the steps. Lucas stayed where he was and watched me walk away. Once I reached the door I turned back at him “Don’t mess with my emotions, just because you’re unsure of your own.”

I turned back to the door and opened it. I was greeted with a blast of warm air. I stepped onto the earth science hall and continued on the deserted hallway. Before the door closed I faintly heard Lucas whimper, choke back a sob, and let out a whispered “Ash?”  The door closed and latched with a loud CHINK. I threw my back pack off for a moment, sighed, and slid down the oddly warm metal door. I wanted to get myself together first. As the event played back over and over again in my mind, the friendship Lucas and I once had, disappeared. As it disappeared, the more I realized I didn’t want it back.